Every boy I’ve wanted to love
is a map I’ve torn before arrival
because I worried they’d leave me roadside when I say
this is the farthest I want to go.
However, since I lacked the language to explain my desires, I felt shame for not having those experiences. Because having sexual and romantic relationships proves one’s masculinity to others, I never felt accomplished as a person.
Here’s a story about what comes after. There are four characters, who I’ll call by the names of body parts.
An issue exploring the ways in which BDSM / Kink and asexuality intersect.
My face cupped like a chalice in your hands as you kiss
my silk-bound mouth, pull my breasts free and tease them with hard fingers.
“I’m going to count backwards from ten …”
I drift into a trance before she hits the count of 1.
Since coming out as asexual, I’ve learned a lot more about what my kink means to me, and what it doesn’t. While there’s no doubt that I seek out tickling when I’m turned on, it’s not a turn on in itself.
Pulling the trigger as I climaxed.
After all, revenge is a dish best served piping hot.
I get to choose whether I want something to happen, how much, when, who is doing it, and, most importantly, I get to choose when to stop.
the thing is:
i have never actually wanted to have sex
in the mechanical sense:
insert tab A into slot B.
There’s also the issues of fucked up desirability politics and racism. I enjoy fetishes, but to be fetishized is to be dehumanized.
This is something like a baptism
After all these years
Still trying to wash the forbidden
from the fruit
…kink can be the space where they finally feel at home, or even more marginalized than before.
Deadline: November 15th
Locating Laurence’s asexuality is an important act of reclamation for asexual history, as it demonstrates that asexuality is a necessary aspect of understanding the historical record of human attraction and desire.
Indigenous ways of knowing and decolonial resource list.
Thanks to discovering asexuality, I see “no” as whole because we are whole.
Can I open
my arms to them,
I didn’t know there was a word for people like me, so I never looked for one.