This is a tale of the Young Woman and her Crush. The Crush is related to the Man. (The Young Woman finds some men and some women attractive.) It is something unique, but, of course, it does correspond with her general attraction-related statements.
Who is the Young Woman? She likes her earrings and shirts. She is short. She does not like a few things about herself. She rarely swears.
The Young Woman is not in a relationship with the Man. Yes, she supposes she would be able to be in a happy relationship with someone. Nevertheless, she thinks that it could not be “typical.” And sex is not necessary, even if sexual fantasies are a part of her life.
However, she is attracted to the Man. Sometimes, she thinks about him a lot.
She finds some parts of the Man’s body particularly attractive. For example, she admires his hands and jawline. The Young Woman enjoys the Man’s smile and height very much, too. Her feeling concerning the Man often make her think about passion and fascination.
(There he is, looking so dapper. There it is, this rugged face. There it is, those great actions of his. His veiny hands, his fingers. There he is, the dream himself. So tall, so magnetic. The whole situation is wonderful, no matter if...)
As a result of her affection, she somehow wants the Man. Sometimes, she feels envy or misses the Man.
She repeatedly thinks about his actions and analyzes the Man’s morality. Unsurprisingly, there are things that she does not like about him. She sometimes criticizes the Man’s behaviour. But she very much respects and admires the Man. This duality is understandable. Importantly, the Young Women finds the Man a worthy person. Being attracted to a bad person is possible, but she would not like to engage in something like this.
The Crush is an essential part of the Young Woman’s life and she knows that it is important for her. It actually influences and enriches her. The Man inspires the Young Woman. In fact, she looks up to him.
The Young Woman’s attraction-related, unrepeatable journey is not always pleasant. It contains obstacles, feeling lonely and moral dilemmas. But the Young Woman would not like to be anyone else. She is herself and it matters. Her problems are a part of her, as well.