the thing is:
i have never actually wanted to have sex
in the mechanical sense:
insert tab A into slot B.
It’s not that I’m against sex, or that I don’t even enjoy it / But it always feels like there’s something I’m missing
I want to pour you thirteen cups of tea, / strawberry and cranberry, twirling, swirling, / like your eyebrows lifted when I said I didn’t want to have sex.